Sick and Miserable… Stuck in “the slump”
So I haven’t been on here mainly for two reasons. I’m sick and that makes me miserable. When you’re sick, you can’t sing… your voice is all scratchy and yucky. So then, you just get bored… UGH! I guess all in all I’ve just been in a funk - or “the slump” as I call it. I’ve been losing my momentum and my drive. It’s the same thing over and over again, day after day. I don’t hate being a singer. I love it. I just hate the routine I’ve put myself into. I think it’s time for a change…. but what?I have been sick since I last watched these two bulldogs last week. I had to dog-sit for two days for a really, really nice guy in Tribeca. I love dogs - and I loved watching these two… they were SUCH good-looking dogs! And really, very sweet and loving. But for some reason, as soon as the owner came around they wouldn’t stop jumping on me and pulling on my shirts. They did this two days in a row and even put a hole in a sweater of mine! Crazy… I thought the first day that they were actually snarling at me, but I soon realized that they just had such a hard time breathing that their breath just came out that way… Charlie and Eddie must be the best-looking english bulldogs in New York, though. I haven’t seen better looking ones here… They could be show dogs.
They are like football players!!! Barely reaching my knees (and I’m short) but at least 75-80 pounds each. I literally have 5 bruises on my thighs from them jumping up on me… but such is life when you’re a dog-lover like me… But don’t get me wrong, I’d do it all over again!!! … BUT I did get sick…My allergies kicked in and became a full-blown sinus infection… that’s the main reason I haven’t sung or been online for the last few days. I did get out on Saturday to see my brother’s dance project - and I’m really glad I did because it was AWESOME! They brought down the house. I just WISH I could dance that well… it would take a LOT of hours of practice though… I mean A LOT.* * *Potential… apparently I have a lot of it.. so they tell me. But sometimes I get in these slumps where I feel like no matter what I do it’s not going to be enough. Forgive me, I’m going to get a little personal here. I try not to do that so much, but everyone has problems right? I try not to be a complainer, but I really just want to get over this! The really disappointing news is that my album is going to be pushed back another month. I’ve been sick so much this month that I haven’t been able to finish my album, and (this is not such bad news) since my brother’s music is really taking off right now, he’s going to take all of February to do some promotional touring… so, I’m probably not going to finish my album until March. MARCH! That seems like a lifetime away! And I feel like the more time that goes by, the less interest people will have in me! Where did all of this doubt come from? I think it’s the slump.That durned SLUMP!!! *sigh* When you’re in the slump, nothing seems to go right. Like the computer starts going on the fritz, and you start losing little things, or you are so miserable that not even your favorite movie or your own husband can cheer you up. It’s like I need a good kick in the pants to get things rolling again. But there’s this little part that doesn’t want to at the same time… I don’t know… it’s a bad place to be.I guess the most important thing is that life goes on. And it’ll keep going on whether you’re on board or not. It stops for no one… so the best thing is to just pick myself up and keep on truckin… even through the dreaded slump. 
UPDATE: I decided to sing a little something for you all anyways… it’s a snippet of Keyshia Cole’s “I Remember.”
JOY!!! Dang, be happy you have more time! Not many people know you by now. And those people who know you, stay with you. Take your time, girl! Get healthy again and then take some dance lessons.
I wonder what you are planning! I mean, you can’t release an album without a single. You have to release a single first, sometime in spring. With a beautiful video! And when it really takes off, you can release your album.
Tell me, can’t you travel with your brother to Europe to sing one or two songs at a few shows? As a special guest. In Germany a huge amount of NS fans will see Ryan and that could be great to introduce you to them. Cassie did the same back in February 2006, right? You should do the same. Ask Ryan what he thinks about it!
When you have some performing experience then, you can still release your album.
Think about it, it would be great for you! But you wouldn’t see your baby for some time. But it doesn’t work without making a sacrifice, right?
I will be in Hannover, Germany, on February 23 when everything works. If you are there, we could meet! We could sit down in the club and talk a bit. I’m sure you would have a great time while touring!
You don’t have to do all shows. You could just be in some countries. I don’t know where Ryan will be exactly… I just know he’ll be in Germany. You could do a few shows and then fly back to NY.
What do you think about it?
Oh, and I have a question. Which direction will your album go? Pop? RnB? Contemporary RnB?
Comment by Denise — January 30, 2008 @ 4:21 am
Joyyy it might end up better that the album has been pushed back..you have a extra month to get as much new people to notice you on youtube.. start to post as much videos as you can cos the more u have the more easier people will find u and it will just take off and ill help you everytime u put a new video up!
yea i agree with denise.. it would be cool if you went on tour/promoting with ryan even for a few days to experience it and get loads more fans!
i know how u feel about the routine thing lol mabye if you tried doing some more open mic’s and played even in all the pubs around you to get your name out!
like denise said if ur ever in germany.. same goes with me. if your ever in france.. or ireland we could meet up and go around loads of places around her and do a few shows/ gigs around the place!
Comment by stacey — January 30, 2008 @ 6:08 pm
Woooowwww I never thought of that - I’ll definitely ask Ryan about it - but no promises because he may not find me ready just yet… Either way - worth a shot, right? It would be so cool if I got to meet two of my best supporters in Europe! I haven’t traveled there for so long!!! Oh and Denise, I think my album will probably be more pop/r&b … Stacey - I miss you on myspace and youtube girl!!! xoxox, Joy
Comment by admin — January 30, 2008 @ 10:46 pm
How do you wanna manage to get an album out there if you are not ready yet?
Judging from your voice your are definetely ready. Judging from the 2 videos of you on stage, you are ready, too. You have stage presence and it doesn’t look like you have stage fright. I think you are ready for a few performances in Europe.
Comment by Denise — January 31, 2008 @ 5:10 am
yayy its gonna be pop/rnb my fav type of music.. well i like all but my favsongs always end up being pp/rnb!
Joy im back on myspace and posted ur latest video around myspace s hopefully it will do well on youtube 
i think ur ready too but ryan and you would know better but hopefully you can 
if not even do more open mic’s around the place! every bit helps get publiclty/noticed and give you a bit of experience 
Comment by stacey — January 31, 2008 @ 9:59 am
Yup. And as I already wrote in a FB message, you should leak one song. Not the future single, just another song. Because then you might get more fans and more people would know you.
Comment by Denise — January 31, 2008 @ 1:33 pm
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